I Have a confession i posted in our S2S group that I was embarrassed of my weight loss because I didnt have any clothes. Thats true but its much deeper then that. I don't have any clothes because I refuse to accept my size 11-13 body and Im in denial about whats really going on. I admit that I never had the strong self confidence especially being an overweight child all my life up until now. I've lost 65lbs and still feel that insecurity. I keep telling myself I wont buy new clothes until I have reached my goal but guess What that attitude left me with only two pair of jeans , 4 or 5 pair of shirts, workout clothes, and maybe a cute dress or two. I've been on this guilt trip and denial road for too long. Time to get my weight loss journey back where it use to be. Even when i dropped those 65lbs I use to say to myself "im still fat" and was not happy with the girl I saw in the mirror.
Because of my own insecurities I could not see the sexy slim young lady everyone else around me saw. I was too busy poking at my rolls and my belly fight that was disappearing to even realize I have done something great. Lesson learned because I kept thinking i was fat and guess what I blocked my own weight loss. If your mentally still having the same attitude and seeing the same person in the mirror then you will always be that person. I kept saying Im still fat and Guess what I gained some weight back. Im still a Medium shirt and maybe 11 or 13 in pants but I was almost there at my goal. But Because I didnt love the girl in the mirror I stopped my own success.
3 things Im learning from my weigh loss experience 1. A changed mind can change anything 2. Shut the Fuck up and just Train 3. I have to put my all into my weight loss at all times. And the video Coach Tiyonna did about loving yourself hit me real hard because she's right You got to love you first regardless if your a size 5 or 15. Its your Fucking body love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so therefore Im saying HERE I AM Ms.FitKitty with flab and still some body fat that Im working to get off.
Watch coaches video http://youtu.be/L8wHP5lInik
I am so glad you wrote this cause i am going though the same thing. This is my fourth day in my weight loss journey and this time its harder cause i have a son. But now I am loving that girl thats inside of me. And i am pushing harder and harder, I have really starting to change my thinking.
ReplyDeleteIm glad to reach someone not only myself. @New Mom2809 you can do it just believe in yourself.
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